Monday February 17
Sasha,
That's quite some slave you lot have there. I have NEVER met anyone so submissive, never known anything so keen to please.
Thanks for the toilet. very nice
Donna
Angel, Almost 30 inches of snow here over the last two days. Talk about a winter wonderland. Did you get a chance to read what I sent you? Sasha
Tuesday February 18
Mistress,
Miss J is being wonderful Mistress, and Miss Hannah, they are so free in enjoying life at the moment, and all weekend in the flat, Miss A has either had her ruler with her and she has used it on my tits, cunt, bottom and thighs at various times, or she has had her finger at my bottom. She is never vicious with it; she just sort of flicks it on me most of the time. Once she called her mom into the kitchen when she had be bending over a stool, and she told her to watch and she swatted my bottom really quite hard with the ruler, and she showed her mom that my bottom goes white then red where the ruler struck. Twice over the weekend she has taken me into her room and allowed me to pleasure her, with my fingers. She kisses me when I have pleased her Mistress.
On Friday night I went swimming with Miss J and Miss A. I wore the costume that Miss J had bought for me. Most of the women in there (there were about 10 I think) were older women so I didn't feel quite so exposed, though I know that I was. Have I told you about the bikini? I can't remember. But it is a two-piece, and the top is a string around my chest, with two triangles of fabric, about 3" wide, maybe less, 2", and a tie neck halter string, and the bottom is very brief. It doesn't cover my bottom, it sort of sits on it, if you understand. Sorry I'm not very good at describing it. But the sides of my bottom are exposed anyway. It would have been worse had there been some more younger women, of my own age say, in there, and it was worrying while I was changing. It was exciting not knowing who might see me like that, but aside from the pool attendant who was quite young, only Miss A and Miss J was under 50 I think. Miss A kept telling me to get out of the water and stroll around to another ladder every now and then, and sometimes she put her hand into my panties and fondled me and pinched my bottom in the pool. Once she threatened to me with making me take my bikini bottoms off, but she didn't, she did once pull the bottom of my bikini down under the cheeks of my bottom and made me swim a length like that. I had to keep on the opposite side of the pool to the assistant's chair.
I told them about Beatrice. No details, just that someone in the office had suggested that I dress more casually, and they asked what I meant, and I said I thought that my skirts might appear too long, and Miss A agreed. She said they looked like 'granny' skirts. Miss A spent some time on Sunday morning with her father. While she was gone I mentioned to Miss J and Miss Hannah about us moving to one house, and even that you had suggested they might like to have a dungeon, and Miss Hannah suggested that we could do that already with the small room in my flat. There is a room which is just about big enough to get a bed in, but that's all. At the moment I think it has just my suitcases in there and my guitar. They were both of the opinion that maybe we would look to moving when 'things had proven themselves' and settled down. I also mentioned about the contract, and both of Miss Jo and Miss Hannah were really pleased when I told them that I would happily show my commitment to them by signing everything over to them, and that I would happily beg them to own me and everything about me. They both hugged me and then Miss Hannah pulled at my nipples while I sat on her lap and she told me that I was wonderful. I was so happy Mistress, and I'm sure they were.
On Saturday night I was due to sleep with Miss Hannah, but Miss J asked if she might prepare me and Miss Hannah was delighted, and so Miss J took me downstairs. She went to tie me but I asked if I might pee first, and she took me to the bathroom and she lad me lay on my back in the bath and try to pee on myself, and while I peed she had her hand at her pussy. When I'd done she told me to shower quickly, then she put me onto the bed and she tied my hands to the bed head, and she stripped and sat on my face and rubbed herself on my face and tongue until she came. She kept saying, "Suck me" over and over as she came. She is really enjoying me serve her now I think, she is much more open, and then she just dressed and said "we'll be back" and left me with her cum on my face. She came back with Miss Hannah and they were talking about fisting, and Miss Hannah showed Miss J how to shape her hand, and then Miss J fisted me, very gently (though it still hurt) and she was so pleased, I could see it in her face. I was gasping with the sensation of it, she just kept moving her hand in and almost out of my cunt until I came. Miss Hannah was holding my one leg and Miss J sitting on the other so that my cunt was so open and I couldn't move. Miss J took her hand out long after I had cum, and then Miss Hannah asked me if I wanted her to do it too, and I said yes please Miss because I could tell she wanted to, and I do so love to make her happy, and she did, but more forcefully, but I was really wet so she did slide in fairly easily, and she showed Miss J how far it could go in me, and they were just looking at my cunt all open like that and I came again, just so completely, with the feeling of her hand stretching my cunt open and them both looking at my bare cunt as her hand was in me, and my orgasm was magnificent Mistress. Then she kissed me, they both kissed me, and Miss Hannah said that I tasted sweet and she smiled at Miss J and she blushed. Miss J left just after that, and Miss Hannah asked me if I was happy, and I said that I was and she kissed me all over my face and my breasts then she sat on my face and had me lick her bottom and her lovely pussy until she came, and she left me tied, peed into me, and left me tied when she went to sleep. Normally after I have been used as a toilet I clean my teeth but I couldn't. I must have had an awful smell about me, but she did kiss me before she fell asleep, holding my breast, almost lying across me. I lay awake for a while just thinking of her and wishing I could hug her, but then I realized that sometimes its not my place, and I just fell asleep thinking how wonderful everything was. Lying there tied to the bed and my lover and Miss against me.
She woke me by slapping my pussy and told me she needed to pee, then she untied me and took me to the bathroom, and she used the toilet and had me clean her bottom, then she and I showered together. We must have been in there a long time, and eventually Miss J came into the bathroom and told us that Miss A had gone, and she just sat on the closed loo and watched us for a while.
Mistress, in one of your mails late mast week you mused about them needing another sub. It's worried me a little. Do you think they want someone else? I know it's not my place to query it really Mistress, but I wondered if any of them has said anything? Am I failing to please them at all? I really thought that they were happy with me. I just want to know so that I may get better, and not disappoint them. Please.
Donna has sort of shown that she just wants to degrade me, in both what she has said and done this weekend. She obviously doesn't want to meet Miss Jo or Miss A because she phones Miss Hannah before coming around, and then when she is here she just uses me as a toilet and calls me names. Miss Hannah says that she is pleased with me though. Maybe it just doesn't show. I don't mind her using me as a toilet of course Mistress, if it pleases her. On Saturday she called in on her way out and apparently left her boyfriend in the car. She called Miss Hannah on her mobile and she met us downstairs in our flat and she just took me to the toilet and asked how people peed into me, and then she lifted her dress and pulled down her panties and asked me if I want to drink her pee, and I said yes Miss, if you want me to, but then she almost snapped at me that she wanted to hear me ask her, so I asked her if I could please drink her pee, and she made me repeat it more pleefully, then she said that I just wanted to get my face near to her cunt, and she asked me if that wasn't the truth, and I said it was, then she looked around and told me to get in the shower, then kneel down, and she said one day you might be allowed to touch my pussy but you're not deserving enough yet, and she said that I has to catch as much of her pee as I could, or I would be punished, and she pulled her pussy open and started to pee and I did catch quite a lot Mistress, but it's difficult to really, and she said she wasn't pleased with me. Then she told me to shower off, then she bent over the washbasin and told me to come out of the shower and lick her asshole, and she kept telling me to put my tongue right in, and I did Mistress, but she just kept saying that it wasn't far enough. Eventually she stood and put on her panties and told me to stay where I was. Miss Hannah came in for me when she had gone and we went back upstairs and Miss Hannah was really pleased. She was all excited when she told Miss J, and she said "wasn't it just awesome to show me around like this". Later, Miss Hannah asked me if I was happy with Donna, and I told her that although it was wonderful to see Donna like that, she is very lovely, I thought she didn't really like me, but Miss Hannah said she was delighted with me, and that she was going to come back whenever she was passing to use 'the slave toilet', and she asked me if I didn't' agree with her that that was a nice name for me. Then she went on and on as to how great it was to have me to share about like this, and she really was pleased, and so I became pleased too, but I hadn't been that happy really. Now I am ok though. Donna came around on Sunday afternoon too, and it was almost the same, except that as soon as she got in she just pulled me into the loo and she sat and did a poo, and a bit of a wee, then she just stood and bent over the basin and told me to clean her. I went to get a paper towel, like I do with Miss Hannah, (I usually use a paper towel first, just one, and then clean her bottom with my tongue) but Donna, she told me to do it with my mouth, and she looked at me over her shoulder and I pulled her cheeks apart and licked her bottom clean. Mistress, even just writing that makes me excited. She has a lovely body Mistress and even just being allowed to lick her bottom clean is, well, it is special Mistress, just as it is when I do it for Miss Hannah. Donna just kept saying that I was disgusting, and that I was gross while I licked her clean. Then she told me to wash my face, and then she put me into the shower and like before she told me to catch her pee, and she teased me with that one day I might be allowed to kiss her pussy. When she had done, she told me to tell her how much I wanted to kiss her pussy, and drink her direct from her cunt, and I told her that I would love to but she kept telling me to say it like I meant it, three or four times. Then she told me to stay there, in the 'pool of piss' and wait for Hannah. When she came in Miss Hannah looked so pleased and she told me to shower, and we made love before going back upstairs.
With reference to your history of what has happened, I will love to read your version of what has happened to me over these weeks Mistress. You have such a way in the way you write Mistress. And the way you talk to people. It will be like reliving it all Mistress, if I am allowed to read it of course.
I thought about what you said about Beatrice, and about how I must see how it progresses, and I decided to just see what happens rather than prompt anything. All she has done today aside from just chatting to me normally in the outer office is to call me in at about 4:00 and she told me to close the door. She said that I mustn't worry and that I know that no one will just walk in when the door is closed, so I can be a tease and she asked me to come around to her side of the desk. She said that she thought I was going to dress more casually for her, and I explained that I only had a denim mini, and that it wasn't that short, and I stood closer to her and said that I was sorry, then she put her hand on the back of my thigh, and said "Don't worry" and she stroked up and down my thigh through my skirt, almost to my bottom. She said; "It would just be nice to have a little tease now and again don't you think", I said yes, and she said "You don't mind me touching you like this do you" and I said that I didn't, that it was flattering, and she said "Exactly" and she moved her hand higher and stroked my bottom, and she carried on stroking my bottom while she told me to get the new training sessions arranged, and just talked about business, and all the time she just stroked my bottom and my thigh. Occasionally, as I leant over the reports I swear she was trying to look down my shirt too. Maybe she is just a female version of the letches I have had to deal with for so long in XXXXXX. I don't mind her letching over me though. Of course, when she'd done she just patted my bottom and she just said "No one needs to know what a little tease you are do they?" and I said no, please don't tell anyone, and she said she wouldn't if I didn't and she was sure that even Hannah doesn't need to know, and I said I wouldn't tell anyone. She said "Good girl" and that I should go.
I have just tried to get into my mail, to see if you have written, but apparently our Internet connection is down at the moment. I will try again before I go and send you this. You know, I have just looked at how much I have written, and I do wonder if bore you sometimes with what I write. Please forgive me if I do Mistress. I am sorry.
It's now Tuesday morning, Mistress; I will try to send this soon. I just wanted to tell you that yesterday Miss Hannah asked her sister to bring around some short skirts for me and she came around last night with them. Most were too loose on me, but two fitted, just about, and today Miss A dressed me in one which is just above my knee when I stand, and there is a short slit in the front, about 4". It's black, so it doesn't look too out of place with what I normally have worn, except for it being so short (usually my skirts are below the knee). I have not seen Beatrice yet today but she should be pleased. Before I left this morning, Miss A was playing about with the skirt and she managed to pull it down right over my hips without undoing it, until it showed my mons. I did ask if I might wear panties under it but Miss A and Miss Hannah forbad it. I just wonder what Beatrice might say if she discovers I don't wear panties?
I have a meeting this morning Mistress, so I will send this now. I am sorry but I appear to have gone on a bit today.
Thank you Mistress
Angel
x - with a slaves love
I have seen what you wrote about our January, thank you xxxxxxxxx
Mistress
Sorry that I am writing to you again so soon, but I have read through some of the 'memoir' and it will be lovely to have that to look at in years to come, and to see how all this started, if indeed it is all still going then, which I hope it will be. There are times when I can't believe some of the things I've done, like when you had me lift my skirt that first time in the warehouse and Miss Hannah looked at my pubes and my bottom. There is just no way that that could ever have happened without you being there. You just have a way of introducing possibilities and of gauging people that I don't have.
I am trying with Beatrice though Mistress. She wants me to be a flirt and so today I went into her room before our meeting with a supplier this morning and sat on one of her visitors chairs and crossed my legs, completely in the knowledge that she could see my thigh, and she looked at my thigh, and I moved deliberately in my chair and didn't pull my skirt down again, while I told her about the ranges and all the time she was looking at my legs, almost casually or even furtively. I hadn't closed the door because we only had a minute before going to our meeting but no one could see me as the doorway was behind me. When it was time to go she came around the desk and I stood and she said that I do have nice legs and that they shouldn't be hidden. She is still in the meeting - they were talking about another division, but as I left she said that we would need to get together later in the day and for me to make sure I had a window.
I have had years and years of men trying to see down my blouses, and all those casual touches on my bottom or my knee and each time I felt horrid about it, but now this is different. I know she is seeing me in just the same way that they did, just as a 'bit of fluff' or whatever, but I just don't mind, and its even fun if I am honest with myself.
I wondered if I should undo a button on my blouse when I go in to her later. God I am such a flirt. I don't suppose I will though, unless she says something.
I should go. I do have work to do, boo hoo. Oh, one thing that I forgot to tell you about was Miss Hannah's birthday 'party'. Last night Miss Jo, Miss A and I all gave Miss Hannah her cards, and Miss Jo and Miss A gave her a Tatu CD (she has mentioned them over and over recently), and I had picked up the bouquet of flowers for her on my way from work. She was really happy, and Miss Jo had bought a small cake and some wine and Breezers (Miss Hannah's favorite drink). Miss Donna interrupted the party when she bought the skirts around for me, and she had a card and top for Miss Hannah. That was the first time she had met Miss J and Miss A and they all seemed to get on ok but while she was here no one touched me except Miss Hannah, and then they took me downstairs for her to go to the toilet. Anyway, I think Miss Hannah was happy with her birthday.
angel xxx
Angel,
I am so glad everything is going well for you. And I am glad Jo and Hannah is considering a house down the road. We will worry about a contract at that time. As for Donna. She doesn't yet fully understand the dynamics of what you all are doing and how you feel about each other. She still is satisfied by her boyfriend and uses this, as a diversion in what she feels is a more perverted sense. Don't be ashamed. Some people look at these things differently at first. Right now she enjoys using you. She does like you and likes what she is doing and definitely wants to continue. Suffice it to say that Donna is providing some humiliation that you need. As much as all the ladies love you and seeing as how new they all are still to this, they are very hesitant to provide you some painful outlets. Donna probably would do it but it is not her place to do so. I don't think Donna will become part of the family like the rest but will continue to stop by to use you. It might grow from there but only time will tell. Beatrice is very interested in you. She still thinks that what she is doing and the liberty she is taking is somehow causing you to cheat on Hannah. That is why she is so secretive. Is she married or single? If she were single that would be great. She comes across an awful lot like Jo did in the very beginning though Beatrice might have more experience or stronger bi leanings. Tell Beatrice that you would like her to also dress in a more casual fashion so you can peek at her charms also. Eventually you will have to clue her in that is o.k. For her to have an interest in you and to also tell her little hints about your relationship. Maybe invite her to go out with Hannah and yourself. Glad you liked your January history. Please remember that you wrote half of it, Angel. It is your new life's story. Now go masturbate for your Mistress...
Sasha I wonder when A is going to let your face between her pretty legs, Angel. Neither you nor I can wait.
Wednesday Feb 19
Dearest Hannah,
I did want to send you a note wishing you a most happy birthday. Things have been rather crazy here because we had two feet of snow over the weekend. But no, I didn't forget. And I am hoping that you are continuing to enjoy my gift to you on a daily basis and will continue to do so for the rest of your life. I have corresponded a few times with your sister. It is interesting because she seems to like the outlet angel provides her to act in a "disgusting" (her words) manner. I do not think that she will ever see or appreciate the beauty of the relationship that you ladies have entered into. She still likes her boyfriend but wishes to continue to use angel and humiliate her. One thing I should discuss with you that is along these lines. Something that you and Jo should realize is that it is quite all right to humiliate angel and give her pain. Whippings, pinching, and the like can be given as a sign of love, dear. The same thing with humiliation. Believe me, angel craves it. It is one of those situations where she will love you all the more if you do it because she considers it a reward. If her bottom and upper thighs are striped and bruised by you ladies, she will feel your love whenever she sits down and feel like she has done well to receive these. Allison must understand that this is being done out of love and that angel loves getting it. As far as humiliation goes, try the following: when you ladies all sit down to a meal that angel has prepared, clear off the center of the table. Have angel kneel on the table with her rear up high and her head down low. Stick a candle into her ass and light it so that you, Jo, and Allison can have dinner by candlelight. This is humiliation. And the hot wax dripping on Angel's rear is also very nice. But have your dinner. Ignore her. She is a candelabra, a fixture. Put an apple in her mouth if you desire. I have mentioned to you a few times that angel really needs a butt plug. She should be wearing this 24/7 except when you ladies remove it once a day for her toilet. This is humiliation. I have also recommended a chastity device to close off her access to her own sex. She will have to beg to touch herself or to pee. But the key, Hannah, is to not let her go to the bathroom when she asks you. Make her hold it. And make her drinks lots of fluids also. If she can't pee because of a locked belt or because you all will not let her, she will feel more about being a slave. When she really has to go very badly, sit her in the bathroom and let her listen to the water run into the sink or tub. Subtle torture, dear Hannah, subtle torture. Another item I would like for you ladies to incorporate into your lives is to, from now on, because angel is now holding your candle during meals, how should she eat? I would recommend that you acquire two metal dog dishes for her and let her eat leftover scraps from these after you ladies have finished on her hands and knees on the floor. And of course, she would not be allowed to use her hands while eating. And you might also, at times, wish to pee into her food before she eats. You may also wish to pet her, spank, or whip her while she eats. What would also be delicious to try would be to get a cat's litter box for her for her to relieve herself into when given proper permission. After all, should a maidservant/pet be permitted to use the toilet her Mistresses use? You can do all these things and more, dearest Hannah, and not worry about angel taking it the wrong way. She will appreciate the extra thought and attentions you all will be showing her. All this can be done with love uppermost in your minds. It's all part of learning how to dominate and exploring how far your slave is willing and able to go for you. I think you will be rather pleased when you see how dedicated angel is to all of you.
Mistress
Angel,
Well, the blizzard is over here but the capital of the free world is almost closed due to snow removal problems. I wrote Hannah today, as you know. I am trying to get her to incorporate more punishments and humiliation into your life. I know that you need these in your life. I am trying to explain to Hannah that doing these things to you in no way reflect on your alls love for each other and it is something you need. It is also a good way to determine if all of them are moving in a direction compatible with you signing yourself over to them in a formal contract. As much as you want this, my love, you must remember that all parties involved must be willing and cognizant of their responsibilities such a contract entails. You must serve their needs as you have been but they must also be ready, willing, and able to serve yours fully. Contracts work both ways. So much responsibility is on the Dommes. Testing them by having them add more into your life is a good way to test the waters. Education is something that must never end for them as well as you. Sitting here looking at all the snow makes me wish that you and I were watching it together from a ski lodge Jacuzzi in St. Moritz or Garmish PK. Dearest, I do want you to take some initiative and get some of the toys I mentioned several weeks ago. And I want you to start using them. Especially the butt plug. An enema bag with nozzle and the strap on dildo are also very important. Nipple clamps also. Remember that your Mistresses probably have never really explored the world of toys. They might feel uncomfortable browsing. Please feel free to acquire them yourself. You are doing this at my direction if asked. When they see your bottom filled 24/7 by a plug and ask, you are doing this for me. You and I have to work together to help train them and expose them to new things. They will see how you like and use these items. They can see how right they are to have. The strap on dildo will be very popular in your household, dear. They will be lining up to use it on you and each other after they find out how good it is. And the good thing is that you are doing nothing on your own, angel. You are doing all this for me. I am glad Jo enjoyed fisting you. How does it feel to look down and see your pussy clamped down on her wrist? You do know that enema bag and butt plugs are ways to train you to be fisted in that last, most private and impossible place? I know that reading this sends a shiver down your spine. But being a slave gives one many things to aspire to, doesn't it? You will do as wonderfully as always, angel. I know that and love you for it. And what has happened with Beatrice? Have you shown her your puss yet? I will need a little more input from you to see how to handle her desires. Please answer my questions from my last letter.
I love you and know you are always kneeling at my feet.
Sasha
Friday, Feb 21
Mistress
I am so sorry that I have not written recently but Beatrice wants me to be close to her almost all of the time over the past two days. She discovered that I don't wear panties on Wednesday, she put her hand up the back of my skirt and got to my bottom and she said nothing but she just sat and stroked my bottom and my thighs while I stood at the side of her. Now she has come to unbuttoning my shirt, yesterday afternoon she undid nearly every button and then just told me to get on with my work on her PC, so I had to stand at the side of her and answer my mails and work while she fondled me, even when she was on the phone she was touching me. I'm sure that yesterday she was even playing with the string on my tampon! Anyway Mistress I am sorry. Incidentally, she told me "You can't imagine how nice it is for an old woman like me to have someone young to touch", then I told her that she wasn't that old, and she told me that she is 57, but I would never have guessed. She is married, but her husband works in the city and he stays there during the week.
She isn't in yet but she will be pleased. Miss Jo shortened this skirt so now it is 4 inches above my knees. She must have taken 4 inches off I'm sure.
There is so much to tell you Mistress. I don't know where to start. At home, Miss Jo and Miss Hannah have become much more serious, especially over the past 2 days, since you wrote to Miss Hannah. Over the past two days they have left my hands tied behind my back most of the time, and Miss Jo told me that when my hands were not tied and I wasn't needed to use them then I must clasp them together and put them on my head. They asked Miss Allison to take me in her room when Miss Hannah started to read your note on the Sharp, and Miss Allison strapped me on my cunt with her ruler until I came, then she untied my hands and she had me touch her to orgasm. Now they don't use the ruler so much, but Miss Jo found a sharpening strap, which her husband used to use to sharpen carving knives on. It's about 14" by 3" and it feels as though it's made of a sort of leather, with a handle at the end.
Miss Allison always spanks me or uses the ruler on me, and then she kisses me and puts my hand on her pussy and allows me to get her to orgasm.
Yesterday my period started, and when I got back home I learned that Miss Hannah's had started as well. She had me change her tampon for her when we went to bed. She is much heavier than I in her period, but she still desired me!! And she let me kiss her clitoris until she came for me, even though she had a tampon in. We fell asleep in each other's arms, with Miss Jo watching. She had come down to use me, as her toilet before she went to bed, but she sat on the bed afterwards at the side of me, and she was still there when Miss Hannah fell asleep, then she went upstairs.
When I came out from Miss Allison's room on Wednesday, they had decided that they need to set up the box room in the downstairs flat. They took me down there and made me clear it, and then Miss Jo put my footstool in there, its about 10" high 18" long 10" wide and covered in red velvet. They tied my hands behind my back again and put me on the floor over the stool, then Miss Jo remembered the strap and she left to get it. Miss Hannah got on her knees and told me she loves me, and asked me if I loved her and I told her that I did, and she told me to remember that I do have a word if I don't like anything. Miss Jo came back and they talked about the strap but I couldn't see it, then they talked about who should do it first and eventually it was Miss Hannah, and she said that I have such a beautiful little bottom, and then she slapped me with the strap, not very hard, and I said "Thank You Miss" and she did it again, harder and I thanked her again, and she told me to be quiet and she hit me harder three or four times, then she stopped. It really stung Mistress, but with a more overall sting not at all like the ruler, more like a hand Mistress. Then Miss Jo used it on me, and it really started to hurt and I started to cry but I was so aroused too, and Miss Hannah heard me whimper or maybe gasp in excitement and they were both worried and Miss Jo stopped and Miss Hannah asked me if I was ok, and I could hardly speak, but I managed to say Yes Thank You Miss, and then she asked me if I was getting excited, and I said "Yes" and "Sorry Miss" and she took the strap and she strapped me and strapped me until I was crying and I came, I don't know how many times she strapped me, but it felt like dozens. When she stopped I was shattered and she lifted my face and she said I was wonderful and she and Miss Jo lifted me up under my arms and sat me on the floor and I winced but they left me like that and Miss Jo started to play with my nipples, and she pulled and pinched at them. All this time my hands were still tied behind my back. Miss Hannah's phone went and it was Donna. Miss Hannah let her in and Miss Donna took me away to the toilet, and she said to them that it was best I was tied up, in case I got tempted to touch her, she said she didn't want me touching her Mistress.
Miss Donna has been around each day, just to use me, and she still has me lick her bottom clean Mistress. On Wednesday she did a poo and she had me clean her with my tongue again. Last night she didn't poo but she still had me lick her bottom and put my tongue as deep into her anus as I could and she said that I must wish there was some shit for me to lick, and she asked me if I was sad that there wasn't any shit for me to eat. I didn't know what to say and she got cross with me and told me to tell her that I like licking her shit-covered ass, and I said "Yes I do Miss" but I didn't really mean it Mistress. I really don't think she likes me but she does like to humiliate me. Last night she said that they all should just leave me tied in the toilet and use me in turn, 'like a public loo'. I didn't think that was very nice, but Miss Hannah laughed and said that they must do it. Miss Donna must have spoken to Miss Hannah too, because this morning when I went to get a tissue to clean Miss Hannah's bottom after she had been, she said "We don't need that do we?" and I said "No Miss". If I clean Miss Donna without tissue then I don't mind doing it for My Miss Hannah Mistress. Anyway, I licked her bottom clean without tissue, that's what I am trying to say. And I imagine that's how it will be from now on. Last night, Miss Allison took me down to the punishment room (that's what they call the box room now - they were talking about it when I got back from work last night). She put a straight back dining chair in there and sat on it and had me across her and she spanked me with her hand then put her finger, then fingers into me, into my bottom, then Miss Hannah came in. They have decided that I must decorate the room. They are going to get some paint at the weekend and use my body to paint the walls, with imprints of my tits and bottom all over the walls. They were both giggling and when I giggled Miss Hannah told me to bend over and she spanked me really hard with her hand, then she stood me up and she slapped my front with the strap, all over my tits and the front of my thighs and my tummy. I almost turned once Mistress, but I didn't. Miss Jo Joined them during this beating and she and Miss Allison just watched.
There are two other big things to tell you of Mistress. First, last night, I was due to go with Miss Jo for the night, but she invited Miss Hannah to join us rather than her going downstairs, and they both undressed. Miss Hannah took me to the toilet and used me then untied me and got me to change her tampon. Miss Jo was in bed when we got back, and Miss Jo pulled back the covers, put me on the bed with my face at Miss Jo's pussy and she lie on the bed next to her, and let me lick them in turn Mistress. When I had gotten Miss Jo excited and almost to cum Miss Hannah pulled my head by my hair to her pussy, and I had to climb across their legs to Miss Hannah's pussy and sucked and licked Miss Hannah. She was laughing at first at stopping Miss Jo from getting to orgasm, then Miss Jo did the same to Miss Hannah when she was obviously about to cum. She pulled me across to her pussy. I just so wanted them to cum. Eventually, after this happened about three times, Miss Jo said that she had to cum, and Miss Hannah stroked her breasts and she came all over my face and it was so beautiful, then she lifted my head, moved her leg and put me at Miss Hannah's pussy and I kissed and licked and sucked her clitoris until she came, and there were traces of blood over her thighs from her period, but it didn't taste of anything, and when she came she and Miss Jo were kissing. Mistress, it was wonderful. Miss Hannah came then she and Miss Jo hugged each other and I just kissed Miss Hannah's pussy and thighs. I was so happy. Miss Hannah said she had to pee and I put me lips ready and she peed into me. At first I was not sure about Miss Jo seeing it, seeing me take pee like that, but Miss Jo actually leant up and watched, and she was smiling when Miss Hannah had finished, then Miss Jo told me to go and wash and to bring a flBeatriceel to wash Miss Hannah. When I got back, Miss Hannah told me to clean her with my tongue first, and I did, then she told me to use the flBeatriceel. When I'd come back from taking the things back to the bathroom, Miss Jo told me to get in the middle, and we all cuddled up, and fell asleep. Miss Jo woke me in the night and used me rather than going to the toilet, and I went to get back up the bed, but she whispered to me to stay down at her pussy, so I softly kissed her and after a long while she came softly and so beautifully, and she patted my head, turned over and placed my face at her bottom and I licked her bottom. I gently pulled her cheeks apart and kissed her, and after a while I realized that she just fell asleep.
I was just interrupted by Beatrice Mistress while I was writing this. I came in early this morning, I took a lift from Miss Hannah and she dropped me off here so I could write to you. Beatrice has just got in though, and on her way through she called me to go in. She wants me to attend all of next week's conference with her. I was due to go on Tuesday night through to Thursday morning but now she wants me there for some meetings before and for the trade show afterwards, on Thursday. Miss Hannah and Miss Jo won't be pleased. They were ok about me being away for just 2 nights. But I cant really say no, she actually wants me for the meetings because I have been liaising with the two firms involved, and she wants me at the trade show because she wants my input. I have to admit that it didn't seem right that I wasn't going to the trade show, but now she wants me to go I almost wish I didn't have to go.
While she told me about next week, she undid some of the buttons of my blouse and pulled my shirt quite open. My tits were not completely exposed, but as I moved she could see them, I know. She asked me to do the agendas for the meetings next week and I went to go, but she said for me to do it there on her PC, and she turned her chair to face me and she watched me, with my shirt open, standing there typing. She is treating me like a secretary! When I'd done, she leant forward and put her hand under my skirt and stroked my thigh and up over my hip while she looked at the agenda's on the screen, and she said "Good girl, now do yourself up you little flirt", When I got to the door she told me she liked my skirt much better, and she turned to her desk and I've just come out. I fastened my shirt first of course I have really mixed emotions about Beatrice over the past couple of days. Its strange, she makes me feel really cheap, and it both excites me and sort of makes me feel humiliated. I know its nothing like Miss Donna and what she does and says to me, but I still feel so cheap.
I was going to say Mistress, the other thing about the past couple of days is that on Wednesday and last night, they put my food onto a plate and left my hands tied and they put it my plate on the floor. They told me to eat there. On Wednesday I thought it was a Joke because it was spaghetti Bolognese and it was really hard to eat like that, but they did it again last night. Also, last night Miss Hannah told me to move away from my plate and she spat out a mouthful of her dinner from her mouth onto my plate. She said she had too much pepper on it, but that I had to eat it.
After dinner they untied me to wash up, and while I did Miss Allison played with my bottom. She moved her chair to behind me and she pulled me so that my bottom was jutting out towards her and she slapped the sides of my cheeks and poked me and grabbed my cheeks.
Well, that's about everything Mistress. I am sorry it is so disjointed, but a lot has happened. One last thing, Miss Jo has adjusted my swimming costume and they had me try it on last night. From the front to back it was 10 inches and now its only 6 inches, she has cut some out of the crotch and joined it together again, so now the front is very low over my mons and the bottom only covers halfway up my bottom. With the bra part she has gathered the bottom of the sort of bra cup, so that now they are just strips, only about an inch wide at the bottom and going to a point as they join the string. Miss Allison also said that when she used to go from school they had to change on the benches by the lockers and she said that's where I should change.
I want to send this now in case Beatrice calls me in again.
I will write again if I can. I am glad you survived your blizzards Mistress.
Thank you Mistress
angel xxxxxxxx
Sasha Wow, we liked ur note!!!!!!!!!!!! And we have stared what Jo says is a regime of abuse for our lovely slave. Jo sends her love too, and I do. She just told me to tell u that this is really lovely and decadent (if that's how to spell it? she wont tell me, Lol don't tell stephie but tomorrow Jo is going to try and get some clips from AS in XXXXford and see what else they have. And Jo has a sewing machine and this afternoon before she got home Jo shortened one of Donna's skirts for tomorrow!!! She's worn Donna's skirts for the past few days, did Donna say? Donna loves her too, really she does, Donna is not that showy about her emotions that's all. During the weekend we are going to try to get some of the other bits and pieces and Jo is going to adjust some of Allison's old clothes for stephie to wear out. And she's done her bikini for Friday.
We are going to pee in her dinner at the weekend. Allison is staying away over the weekend. Jo thinks it's best if Allison doesn't see it. Allison likes spanking her; she's always at her ass or her tits with her ruler, and the strap now!!!!!!! Her bum the other night after a thrashing was red as a beet. Lovely. Allison still undresses her and dresses her so she's a happy bunny, and she gets to take her to her room now and then.
Might go round Donna's sometime to chat with u soon
Hannah & Jo
Angel,
This reply can't be long because I have a rather busy day ahead also.
First off, Donna does like you. She likes you an awful lot. She is just not so good at showing it. Sometimes women who has promised themselves that they are not going to become lesbians put on a harsher face than they should because they are afraid of letting their feelings out. And if she (or the others) starts to make you do things, like in the toilet) that you are uncomfortable with, please tell Hannah and behavior will be modified. Their wishes and your happiness must meet equally and they know this. It is safe to say that some things you all try might not be right. But one would never have known unless one has tried. As for Beatrice, I do miss hearing from you so often. First off, since she is not part o the group and I have not written her, you are not her sub. You do not have to act that way if you don't wish to. You might not want to because she is your boss. It would appear that she wishes to have a nice quiet affair with you on the side. Please realize that the more time you spend with her, the more the others in your office will realize it and start to talk. You do have a reputation to uphold. And Beatrice obviously wishes you to be her girl-toy during your trade show meeting. Hannah and Jo deserve to know this. I do think that, with all you are doing for Beatrice, that Beatrice providing you a very nice raise would be appropriate, don't you? After all, you are taking a risk and, like you said, feeling a little cheap. Please tell me if you like this feeling or if you wish the relationship with Beatrice to be modified. And if modification is necessary, please tell me the direction you would wish it to go. You have to decide how you wish to continue with Beatrice. Should she be taken into the fold or is this something that Jo and Hannah will allow you to continue privately. She has the advantage that she is married but has her entire week free. She might be a candidate if you wish her to be let in. Either way, you deserve more money for extra "services" above and beyond provided to your boss. This is one of those office relationships that, played correctly, should advance you in the company depending on Beatrice's position. Do you like eating off the floor, angel? Do you like the extra pain and humiliation provided you by your Mistresses? You, of course, may tell me anything. I thought that you might need a little more of both from them to make you feel totally fulfilled. I hope you are enjoying. I do love you, dear. And I will try to write you more and reply to Hannah in a few hours.
Mistress
Mistress,
Thank you for your note, and for your offer of confidentiality, but I want, no I need you to know that anything I tell you is in your domain. It is your right to know that you may forward anything that I tell you to whomever you wish. But you do know that don't you Mistress. You know you have absolute right to do use it however you see fit.
As for Beatrice Mistress, the reason I have resisted telling anyone at home about her is that I really don't want her to become part of the 'group'. I really don't think she would fit in, and the fact that she is a Director of our Company I think would affect how she and Miss Hannah would act. But, having said that, I am going to tell them that she touches me. It is right that they should know, and I will tell them whatever they ask me about it Mistress. It was wrong of me to not have told them, I know that now.
I have thought about whether or not I do actually like what she does and how she treats me, and Mistress I'm afraid that I do like it. Mistress, she is so impersonal about it all, no affection (not explicit anyway) and yet she feels she has the right to stare so blatantly at me, at my legs and down my shirt, and she touches me just so casually. Mistress I love it. Though it is so relatively tame, compared with my Mistresses and Miss Donna, but I love that she feels the right to use me, even to do relatively menial tasks while she watches. As for her taking up my time, just before lunch she asked me in, and I went in, but I told her that I just had to complete something and I asked her if I might come in later when I'd finished, and she said of course, work comes first. Mistress, I do like how she treats me.
The same is true of Miss Donna Mistress. I am sorry and I really feel that I shouldn't be saying this but I do love how she degrades me to being just a toilet Mistress. Again, she is impersonal about it and more than that she makes me know that what I do for her is disgusting, and I know that in the vanilla world it is, but I have become used to it, used to licking her bottom clean Mistress. Is that awful? I know it may be, but now Miss Hannah wishes me to clean her the same way then it is only a taste Mistress, and they always allow me to clean my mouth and teeth immediately afterwards Mistress. It's not like with the pee Mistress, where she has left me kneeling in a pool of her urine for Miss Hannah to see. It is true Mistress, that the first time she did it I was disgusted with myself, for doing it, and for the feeling of actually liking being in that position, being that low. And now I know I sound quite disgusting, but it is true Mistress. I did feel all that, I know that now. It is something I never thought I would do, not even in nightmares have I ever thought of doing that Mistress. But now, it is a service it is a way that I am useful and degraded. And Mistress, I do know that to be true to myself there must be some things I do which are not going to give me pleasure. There have to be things that I do not wish to do; inside of me I know that they have to be there for me to be complete in whom I am. Do you understand Mistress? If anyone will feel it it is you. I do so hope you do.
With reference to Miss Jo and Miss Hannah, Mistress, they are wonderful, especially over the past few days Mistress. And I do know that it is from your guidance. I saw how things changed following your note to them. Thank you Mistress xxxxxxxxx
They have grown in affection for each other too, both physically and emotionally, over the last week, and especially in the past 2 days. But, it has not affected how they express their love of me. They each still tell me how they love me, even this morning, they each kissed me, and told me how they love me, and love who I am.
As for how things have been since your note. It is right that I shouldn't eat with them. I know that. I had thought myself above my role, but now I know and understand, and I feel better, a better slave, for it Mistress. They now appear to realize that I am less than they are in the order of things, though it does not affect how I love them, and doesn't appear to affect how they appear to love me. Indeed, it is almost more love, that they respect me and trust me enough to degrade my position like this.
Mistress, I am so very happy.
And they are much more physical with me Mistress, pulling my hair to move me, and pulling at my nipples quite viciously, and yet with a smile as they watch me. And the strap, Mistress, I didn't tell you before, but when Miss Hannah was trying to get me to cum from being strapped I looked and saw Miss Jo in the corner of my eye and she was touching her pussy, albeit through her jeans Mistress.
She was excited at my being punished, and that helped me to cum, to know that. And Miss Hannah is so comfortable with me that she has me change her tampon Mistress. Even that. Oh Mistress, its wonderful.
I still have confusions Mistress. I'm sorry but I do. Like this evening ... I tried my bikini on last night for them and there is almost nothing of it now that Miss Jo has altered it. And, they want me to change out in the open, not a cubicle. I am so hesitant; no it's not just hesitant. I am scared that they might have me change in front of strangers. But the fear breeds excitement in me Mistress. I know its perverse but it is true. I'm sorry but it's something I can deny, neither to myself nor to you Mistress.
I am going to send this now Mistress, I feel that I have answered your queries, at least I hope I have, and please forgive me if I have not.
Thank you Mistress, for how you have developed this, and nurtured all of us. I will beg of Miss Hannah that she allow me to go to a chemist and buy an enema bag and tools tomorrow Mistress, to please you.
With a slaves love and respect. angel xxxxxxx
Angel,
I do thank you for your letter. And I do understand all the feelings you expressed. You are a very deep person with strong feelings and I respect you for them. It is all right for you to like what you are doing even though very few people do them. The key thing is that you do these things because you wish to do them, you like to do them, and that you are doing them to please someone you love. Just don't be one of those people who needs to do those things just to raise their self-esteem. When it come to these and other things, such as the changing in public and what you are directed to wear while swimming, you must just relax and realize that a dedicated slave's life is easy. All you have to do is close your mind and obey. That is all. With your will and dedication, you will have fewer problems with it than most. As long as you trust your Mistresses and you and they trust me, as the Uber-Mistress, to do the right things with you and also do things with you pleases us all, than you will be all right. Continue to do as you do so well, just obey. As for Beatrice. Since you say she is coldly impersonal is her dealing with you, it would appear that she does have a strong dominant streak. You two seem to have fallen into those roles naturally. It would appear that you are gaining a Mistress to control you at your office in addition to the ones controlling all your other times. This is not a bad thing. I do want your life totally controlled and have you dedicate every hour to servitude in some way, shape, or form. You want and need this also. But I do feel very strongly that your new "special" position with Beatrice should be reflected in your position and compensation with the company. As to this upcoming trade show. It would appear that Beatrice desires you for the duration. You need to sit down with Beatrice beforehand and ask her how she expects you to dress and act during the show, both when in public and when alone together. Also ask her if you will be requiring a separate hotel room. Her answers will tell her how she expects not only that show but also future relationships with her to go. Then you and I will need to talk with her to explain the dynamics of the relationship you are involved in and if she sees herself fitting in an office time role. But do think of your career, Angel. Think about how this can move it forward. You have the talents. Maybe this will put you in a much better position so as to utilize them. And I do hope you get the enema bag and toys this weekend. I will explain to you and your mistresses how I wish them used. Trust me when I say that you will feel humiliated, degraded, and uncomfortable. Please also enter into discussions with Jo and Hannah about you getting the piercing I require of you. Your life will be a lot better with nipples pierced, your clitoral hood pierced, and each of your vaginal lips pierced as well. And yes, there will be some pain involved but pain given out of love and servitude is pleasure, right? Even though you are being treated as is proper for your position, do remember that your weekly or biweekly open discussions as a group must still continue. Now more than ever because this is your only chance to voice opinions in an open forum. Do me a favor for your Mistresses. Clean their toilet with your tongue. Inside and out. Get it all shiny for them. See how pleased they are with you then. Now go masturbate for your most important Mistress.
Sasha