Jan 6, 2003
Sasha, my (erstwhile) Mistress ...
I still think of you that way Sasha. Is that silly of me. I know it's been such a long time since you probably thought of me in that way, but still, sometimes, I sit here wondering.
I read your message in messenger, and a warmth swept through my whole body. You cant imagine how it felt. And when I read of you thinking of my bottom being marked, well, it was just so ... well, so wonderful.
Sometimes, I sit here naked, thinking of having been naked at your wish. I miss that part of my life so much sometimes.
Enough of that... I'm not going to be mournful.
I have left the office I used to be with now. I have a new position, called Sales Mentor, for a company in XXXXXXXX. Basically its just a training job, but specifically in generating and promoting sales. Its fun though, and almost all of my 'students' are women, so I am more comfortable. They used to be clients of mine, and they offered me a full time job. My boss, Xxxx , is wonderful. I have known her for about 5 years I guess, since I was sent to their old offices before the sell off. (The company was in trouble and so XXX put some capital into them, and a team of us were put in to help 'turn things around', Im not too sure how much I helped in the turnaround, but Xxxx must have been pleased. She phoned me out of the blue in February last year, and I took it without a thought.
I have a new flat too. Ground floor of an old house (1895) quite close to the center of town. There's not much to it, but it has really high ceilings and enormous windows. And its warm - which is vital at this time of year.
I am in my office just now. There are four offices here on my floor. And a training room, fitted out like one of the shops. Gosh, aren't I being boring. I'm sorry. I just thought you might like an update.
I miss Lugano though, and the friends I met there. I went back over Xmas, just for 4 days, and had a great time. Drank far too much though. Im sure I must have showed myself up, but I cant remember if I did or not, and no one was cruel enough to say I had. But I think we were all much the same.
You know in your note, you said you had read through my old mails to you. I wish now that I had kept them, but with one thing and another they have gotten lost. I remember most of what happened, but I wished I had your mails, just to remind me of how you had once thought of me as yours.
I've made a number of friends, none in particular. Perhaps the closest to me is the daughter of the woman who lives upstairs from me. She is a darling, if a little cheeky. Her mum is nice too. Sometimes we share a bottle of wine and watch TV together. (me and her mum that is, lol).
Anyway, I better go. I'm sorry, Miss, if I have bored you at all. There's so little else happening in my life that I have only the fantasy stuff to tell you about.
Do write back, please. What is happening with you? Do you sub for anyone these days? I often think of you with your friend, the Mistress, and wonder ...
Happy New Year Sasha
x
Jan 6, 2003
I just have to tell you this, I feel I must.
I have just visited the bathroom, here at the office, and I masturbated myself, wildly, thinking of how things were. Of my submissiveness and of you, and my trips.
You were apart of it, so I just felt that I had to tell you.
I was lucky too. I had just finished when I heard the door open.
Oh, there is something else to tell you. I meant to say it in my earlier mail. It just slipped my mind, sorry. You mentioned in your messenger message about my shaved pussy. I have allowed my pussy hair to grow again. Oh I keep it neatly trimmed, but it is grown again, for some time now. Sorry if you are disappointed. It was just that there didn't appear to be much reason to keep it clear.
Well, that's all. Have to get on with some work.
x
Jan 6, 2003
There is very little you could ever do to disappoint me, Stephanie. I am so glad to have heard from you and to be updated in what is going on with your life. It definitely sounds like you are doing very well for yourself. Are you still in the Geneva area? I did notice that you said nothing about personal relationships. I would hate to think that someone as tender, warm, honest, and kind would not be sharing all her love with someone, male or female.
Personally, life is going along just fine. Still consulting with small retail businesses and having to travel while doing so. No heavy personal entanglements though I did have a short lived relationship with a young lady from England. She was mid 30's not too tall with dark hair. When I heard her accent, honestly, I flooded my panties in about a minute. Everything you and I had done came rushing back to me to the point that I did have to sit down. I knew I had to have her because I knew that listening to her speak was just like listening to you. She eventually did notice that I did most of my listening to her with my eyes closed. I did tell her about you and I and let her read a few tamer letters you wrote me (I do have every single one, would you like to read a few?) but she eventually did tell me that she felt she was living in your shadow and couldn't compete. I have no Mistress. What I did back then was something I did for you. CaraBeth is still a friend and reminds me about that experience sometimes though I haven't thought about repeating it. That is something that I would only do with the love and support of yourself.
I really did do it, Stephanie. And I would do it again in an instant if you only but asked me to. You did so much at my behest showing your true feelings that I really feel that I would be remiss if I didn't desire to do the same for you out of the same feelings of love. I know exactly what you did for me and with whom from your letters and dairies. And what happened to you was oftentimes painful and humiliating. But you and I both know that it was your feelings for me that strengthened you through those sessions and allowed you to experience sexual fulfillment. Well, my dear, it was exactly the same for me during that long, painful, night being raped and beaten repeatedly. I screamed, I cried, and I bled. But knowing that your were there with me in spirit and how you felt about me also allowed me to orgasm more than I ever had before or since.
And don't be shy, my dear, about telling me you have pubic hair. Pubic hair is nice. Shaving it is mostly symbolistic for a sub and also shows others that you do pay special care to your appearance down there. But women who are very hairy also have their allure. Especially if their bottom is hairy between the cheeks. Hair hides, magnifies, and traps a woman's essence wonderfully.
Reading about your happenings has warmed my heart, dearest. Then reading about you masturbating in the ladies W.C. has aroused similar feelings in myself. So I will do the same. While writing the last few sentences, I have lifted my skirt to above my waist and lowered my hose and panties down to just above my knees. This sentence I am typing very slowly with one hand. The other hand is doing exactly what your fingers and tongue would be doing were you safely ensconced under my desk between my legs. This sentence I am writing with both hands but there appear to be little wet, sticky marks left on each of the keys I touch. I wonder what causes that? This sentence will be the last before I totally let go.
Ahhhhh, Stephanie. I closed my eyes and there you were, nude from the waist down, kneeling up on my desk with your precious bottom right there before me. You had relaxed your muscles so that I could see that very special, dark, place winking at me, begging me to penetrate it with my tongue. As I was doing just that, my fingers brought me to a shuddering orgasm. Golly, you are wonderful! You are my most precious Angel. My heart flutters with the thoughts of you being that Angel yet again as you always have been in your heart..........
Your ever loving Sasha
P.S.: I would absolutely kill to have newer pictures of you, Angel. For nudes of you I would do almost anything ........anything........you have only but to ask.
Jan 7, 2003
Mistress
Its nice to type that. I realize its not my place to, but I thought about starting with that for an age, and I just so wanted to.
I don't have anyone at the moment, you know, any relationship. I did have someone I was really close to, for a while but she was already in a relationship and started (quite rightly) to feel badly about having an affair, so things sort of fizzled out. We still write one another but that's all.
As for you wanting to see my photos. I'm not sure you would want to. I have been diagnosed as having gallstones, following a couple of bouts of severe abdominal pain. They advised me to go on a completely fat free diet, and so - after just 3 months I have gone from my 8st 4 (116 lbs) to 7st 1 (99 lbs). So I am quite a waif now. I feel pretty healthy though, and haven't had any pains since I started the diet. Still, it was a good excuse to replace my wardrobe. I splashed out on myself at Christmas, with new trousers, skirts and a couple of new dresses, and panties. Yes, I wear panties most of the time these days. Like you said about having a smooth pussy, it just wasn't the same when I thought about not wearing panties just because of my own whim. I do go without sometimes, just to feel as I used to, but it still isn't the same.
I still don't know how to say this next part, other than just to say it ... so .. Well, I still do show myself sometimes. Just at the sports center, while changing and in the shower. I swear that sometimes some of the women do look, and I love to think that they do anyway. I languish in the shower sometimes for 5 minutes, and I take my time dressing. But that, sadly, is about the extent of my sexual activity at the moment. I do sometimes have a fantasy that one of them might approach me and slap my bottom. Some have stopped and chatted to me while I was nude, or while getting dressed, but never to fulfill my fantasies. Oh, I do get excited, even just being there naked as they talk to me, it doesn't stop me masturbating myself at the thought of them seeing me naked. As I think back, when I was clean shaven I always felt so much more naked, do you understand. More people used to look - I guess just because it was unusual.
Sorry, Im rambling on now.
My closest friends now, outside of work, are Jo and her daughter, they are my neighbors. Her husband left her about 2 years ago, but she is enjoying what she calls her 'life of ease'. She is really jolly.
At work, Xxx is my boss, She must be about my age, but something of a tyrant sometimes. She is quite big, you know, overweight, but she does fancy herself and wear all of her clothes too tight. The others I work with are nice too. It's worked out quite well. We are working on a project to develop scripts for sales teams at the moment. Lots of role playing between us all, and some of the girls from the local shops. Its great fun.
Well, I should go and get on with some work again I suppose, and as for being your Angel again ... well, I would be honored my sweet Miss Sasha. But you know that. To be your Angel again would give me that purpose, and sense of belonging again. That feeling of importance, that's part of what I felt before, that I was important. That my going without panties, and being clean shaven was important - it was important to you. I was braver too. I was definitely braver when I was doing things for you. I dressed in less clothes, I showed myself more freely, I was just generally braver. And I had some freedom from being submissive like that. It was liberating.
Well. I don't know what else I can say now. I hope you know how I feel, Miss. I will beg of you, if you wish. I would be proud to beg you to take me again. And I would do my best to find some new contacts, and try to please you. I have been quite conservative in the new clothes I have bought, but I could get some others if you wished. Actually, I have seen (but not yet been in) a lingerie/clothes shop not far from here, called "XXXX, Xxxxxx", and the window is adorned with both lingerie and micro mini skirts and such. Its beautifully pink, everything about it, the logo, the lighting, backcloths, everything.
Gosh, I've started to ramble again. Sorry Miss Sasha. Oh, one last thing ... I would like to see some of my old mails to you. It would be lovely to see if my memory serves me as well as I believe it to. Oh, I am sorry Miss, but I do remember what you went through with Mistress CaraBeth. And I still feel awful that some of it was at my request. I wrote to Mistress CaraBeth a number of times. She is fascinating, and very Domme, just from her mails, so I can well imagine what happened to you was every bit as extreme as you said. I'm sorry Miss.
I will go now.
x
Jan 7, 2003 Sweetheart,
I was so elated to hear back from you so soon. I am glad to hear more about what has been going on with you. I was sad to hear that your health faltered but feel better because you say you are o.k.
Just because you have lost weight is not a reason to think that I would not wish to gaze upon you, dear. Stephanie, the whole person is whom I am interested in.
Your letter did indicate to me that you feel a little lost in your life right now. Everything is going well for you employment wise and all but you seem to be lacking direction as far as your relationships go. It would seem that your personal life is sort of vanilla because of how sexually charged everything was for you when you were living to obey my direction.
I can also feel your longing for a return to those days when everything was so exciting and the burden of decision was lifted from you in trade for the lighter burden of only obeying. I can feel that you do wish to beg me to be your Mistress again and to resume control over you.
Me doing so is a large commitment for us both, dearest. I think, to be fair, we both need to show each other how deeply we are willing to undertake this newer commitment.
How do you show your willingness, you might ask, dearest one. And how do I show you mine? This is what you will do for me, Stephanie. I do want to see what you look like. In fact, I require it. I need to see the following:
1. A picture of you as you are now dressed. 2. A picture of you as you are now in bra and panties 3. A picture of you nude showing me your trimmed hair 4. A picture of you after you have removed that hair. 5. A picture of you shaved bald spread open with the word "angel" written over your pretty pussy in black marker.
In your next letter you may also tell me how far you are willing to go to submit to my wishes and desires, dear one.
I hope you wish to go through with all of this and be my Angel again. When I can call you Angel again, we will both work hard at changing your wardrobe and eliminating your need for undergarments. We will also nurture your need to show yourself to others and be punished for that transgression. We will keep you at a fever pitch for most of your waking hours.
I am also forwarding to you several of your past letters. See now why I can't get you off of my mind. I am already looking forward to your next letter and seeing you after all this time. You do make my heart beat so much faster.
Hoping to be your loving Mistress very soon,
Sasha
Jan 8, 2003
Sasha
You know me so well in so many ways and yet in one important way you show that you don't know me at all or i haven't explained myself to you or whatever. I don't want you to sub for me. not today, not next week, not next year, unless i change my whole personality, my whole being. I cant bear that sickness i felt the last time you went to Mistress CaraBeth and it came back to me when you mentioned her in your mail, and you said about what i had said should happen to you, i was sick in my stomach at just the thought of it. I had a loathing of myself that i had done that, you must know that being Domme is not an election, its not something you decide oh today i will be forceful and decide ways to have this person or that treated abusively. its who you are and i am not that person you think me to be. And I cant be that person, not even temporarily. Sasha, you say my life is vanilla and so it is but i am happy enough and i like my own company and I will find things to do and enjoy and at some time everyone has to accept that all they have are memories to live on, and i have mine. I can cherish what i was, however briefly it was, but for me it was so intense that it fills a canopy. I have more to think back on that many people do at 50. Be happy Sasha, and get in touch with CaraBeth.
Jan 8, 2003 Stephanie,
I did not say once that I wished to be submissive to you. You misunderstand. It is you I desire and only in the submissive role that you do so well in. Cara knows our situation and why I did what I did back then. She knows that I did it to show myself, mostly, how deeply I felt about you and how committed I was to you. Maybe my desire to do so was your fault in some very good ways. You were so perfect back then in that you honestly did live for my beck and call and you performed so perfectly and so honestly. I almost felt guilty that maybe I wasn't worthy of someone like you. Doing what I did was more for showing myself that I was worthy of your submission, love, and devotion. My God, Angel. I don't know anyone who has met someone as precious as you. I showed you this entire new world and you blossomed like a flower. I have given many hours of thought since I wrote you yesterday. And I realize that I don't really desire to see CaraBeth. I realized that, after all the time apart from you, that I do have the ability to bring more of this magical world to you. I have no reason to feel guilty about being the right one for you. I want to treat you like the wonderful gift from above that you are and use my relationship with you to make me a better person. I mean, isn't that what it is really all about? I know you say that you have done more in your life than most people and you have plenty to look back upon. But why stop there, Angel? It is not about where you have been. It is about where you are going. I really believe that you and I have to risk going too far to see how far we really can go. I want you. I want to picture you packing all your panties up in a suitcase and storing them away in a back closet. I want you sitting wet at your desk after having masturbated in the ladies room for the third time that day. I want you shaved, showering for long periods at your health club and then lovingly oiling your nude body in front of whom ever desires to view you, not knowing that what is glistening on your thighs is not oil. I see you as the best customer of that exclusive ladies store you found and having a young clerk watch you in the dressing room as you try on everything there. I want to introduce you to a world of toys and devices that will keep pushing you over the edge whenever you use them. I don't need carabeth anymore, Stephanie. I need you. I want to be a part of you and to be a part of widening that canopy you mentioned. I also remember how much what I did then hurt you inside. But please remember what I wrote above and why I did it. And I did read between the lines in your letter and went back and read a few you wrote me more recently (see? Saving them is a good thing!) You wrote me once that you felt that what you and I had been doing was wrong and perverted. I sense that those feelings remain to a certain degree within you. I understand your feeling in that respect and, as before, I feel that those feeling are unfounded. It would be worse for you here in the U.S. Here our society has those puritanical roots. Those were those people who were so straight laced and prude then even England kindly invited them to leave 400 years ago. Those "moral" roots here provide people with a foundation for guilt that pervades our society. Without going into historical diatribes here, dear, my personal feelings are that what we did then and what you did for me then was not perverted. You are a consenting adult. And what you did did nothing to hurt anyone else nor did it force anyone else to do anything they didn't desire to. You have to live your life by what pleases you and fulfills you, Angel. Living up to other people's standards only serves to please them, not you. All I can say is for you to remember how your heart flutters when you thought of what you had done. Remember your body's reaction when you thought about you doing it again. Think about how, when you are nude in the dressing room and someone comes up to talk to you, how desperately you desire to chat with them and gently, unconsciously (to them), you wish to gently spread your legs so that they can see the excitement flowing from your lips. Remember how delicious you felt in the office when you were in a meeting without panties with something lodged in your bottom when everyone else thought you are the hard headed professional. Remember the joy of release you felt when masturbating in a stall in the ladies room after chatting with me and how refreshed you felt when going back to your desk. But most of all you need to remember that when you walked back to your desk you looked at the others there and wondered if they only knew what they were missing in their lives by not having that delightful avenue for joy and release that you have and how drab their lives must be without it. All those feelings you have felt and still do that warm you all the way down to your pretty toes (and toes I would love to kiss) are not wrong. Those feeling are some that alot of people never get the joy of feeling throughout their entire lives. That you do feel them is an ultimate gift to yourself. There can be nothing wrong with that. Gifts like that come from above, Angel. if they are given, it is up to us to make use of them. Not doing so would be life receiving something very special for Christmas and then deciding that it is too nice and never taking it out of the box. Let yourself go to me, Angel. Call me Mistress. Place your pretty self into my capable hands and let me guide you again to the joy that awaits you. Give yourself to me. It is time for you to leave that comfort zone and re-enter that exciting fear zone of your life. Look at yourself in the mirror and tell yourself that today you choose to do whatever it takes. Walk faster, talk louder, and Smile! What lies between the start and the end of your journey is discipline. Discipline yourself to me, Angel.
Sasha
Jan 10, 2003
Mistress,
I am happy to call you that, as I know you do have it in you. Whether or not you are a 'switch' or not, you do have the right qualities to be Severe and Dominant. And just as you described being submissive as being a gift, so is the ability to have, show, and use your domination. I think back on the mystery that was in your notes to Mme Martine, there were many times when I have wished that I knew how you talked of me in them, and what you told them to do to me. And the beauty of command that was in your letters to me. They were so special, so irresistible. You know, I read and re-read them, over and over, and I so wanted to show them to someone, to a friend, to show how I was yours, to show them my true nature and your power over me.
I confess that I am hesitant. I don't know when, or if, you might bring up the idea, or the need that you should suffer for me. Just as you said to me that you feel I should be true to myself, so should you, and even if it is only as a whim, if you do ever feel a need to be submissive, then you must say. I do know the pleasure there is in submitting, in humiliation, in punishment. My darling Mistress Sasha, I do understand.
Please be as true to yourself as you wish me to be.
As for me finding some of the things I do disgusting, well, I confess that I do. But, part of they joy, inside, is the feeling that I do disgusting things, that I follow your instruction and do finger my bottom, and wear exposing clothing even in public, that I allow people to do things to me. The 'normal' part of my brain says this is wrong, but the emotional in me finds it all so very exciting. Please forgive me Mistress for my judgment sometimes. Please know that it is only part of me that feels that way. In other important ways it is important and special to me.
I will wait to hear from you Mistress Sasha
stephanie - angel
Jan 10, 2003
Mistress Sasha,
Thank you.
Tonight I am due to go up to Jo for dinner, but I will be thinking of you, and of things I will do for you. And thinking of sharing with someone the joys of my servitude and my depravity.
xxxx angel
Jan 10, 2003
Angel,
I wish your messenger was truly up and running. I would love to chat with you, if only for a bit. Good to hear about dinner tonight. Do this for me. Print out the last letter from me. Take it with you. Fold it into a long strip and insert my letter into the crotch of your panties next to your pussy and let it remain there during your dinner engagement. That way you will know that I am with you and will remind you of how desperately you wish to tell josephine about your desires and submission to me. And of course, if you desire, you may show her the letter. If your juices haven't soaked the ink right off of the page! We will need to discuss wardrobe and your personal grooming habits very soon. it would be easier to do so via chat rather than letters.
Mistress
Jan 10, 2003
My Mistress Sasha,
I will do as you say, and put your last mail to me in my panties while I go to josephine, and I will see if I can tell her about you Mistress. I will try.
I am afraid the servers here at the office don't allow the use of messenger Mistress, but I will see if there is a way to get onto Messenger.
The times I get to see your mails are when I visit Dotty, another friend of mine. I will see what I can do Mistress.
angel
Jan 10, 2003
Angel,
Tell josephine ONLY if you are comfortable with doing so. Sometimes the fact that you have a secret like this is more delicious then her knowing. I also would never want to risk your friendship with her. The fact that you know that my piece of paper is there next to your pussy, probably being drenched the whole time, will be a constant reminder to you of your status. Of course, I do know that you will be masturbating furiously well into the night. Hopefully you still have some of the toys you bought back when and put them to good use. And I also have heard nothing from you about my requirement to see you, Angel. I think you will agree that it is a necessary thing. It will also afford you the opportunity to share yourself with someone visually, even if it is me.
I love you deeply, Angel. I wish you only secret pleasures and joy tonight!
Mistress
Jan 10, 2003
Mistress,
I don't have a camera, but I imagine that Sxxxx has a digital one. She has most techno gadgets - I know she has a PDA and a wap phone, so she will probably have a Camera. I will ask her when I next see her.
As for josephine, I don't know what her reaction might be, but she was perfectly cool when I told her I was gay. She had been badgering me about why I don't have a boyfriend when we had had a little too much wine one night, and she was fine with it. She even told me that one of her longest standing friends was openly bi. I don't think it would be as hard to tell her as it would be anyone else. That's not to say that it would be easy. But if I did, then I'm sure I would have some sort of relief, that someone else knows. But I am all confused now ... lol Anyway. for now I will just do as you say and just hold the paper there and not tell her.
angel x
Jan 10, 2003
Mistress,
I am confused now. Do you want me to tell her Mistress? And should I show her your note? I am sorry about chat, but I have tried here before and the proxy server does not allow chat.
I am sorry Mistress, Forgive me
angel
Jan 10, 2003
Mistress Sasha,
It's probably easier for me not to tell her then Mistress.
It feels good Mistress, to have felt excited again.
angel
Jan 10, 2003
Dos it feel good enough to go to the ladies room and to run your pretty fingers through your pubes until you cum for me, Angel?
Jan 10, 2003
Yes Mistress, It did. lol
x
Jan 10, 2003
I am so glad it did, mon cher. I do think that we need to modify your daily office schedule so that you are masturbating quite frequently for your Mistress. I think that the following masturbation schedule is good: - Right after you arrive at work - In mid morning when all the vanillas take their coffee break. - Right after your lunch - And again in the mid afternoon.
And of course, your off work hours belong to me as well.
Please also list for me the sexually related toys you still possess. Please include things like clothespins for your lovely nipples and vaginal lips. With a camera, you will be demonstrating your abilities to use them for me.
Mistress
Jan 10, 2003
I will keep to the masturbation schedule you have described Mistress. And - as for my time away from work, of course it is yours.
As for 'toys', I am afraid the only thing I still have is the small vibrator. It was the only thing I thought I might still need. Sorry Mistress
angel
Jan 10, 2003
Well, I am off in 5 minutes. I will maybe pop around to Xxxxxx's at the weekend if she is there.
Have a good weekend Mistress.
angel
Jan 12, 2003
Dearest angel,
I am writing you Sunday so that you will read me first thing Monday. I hope your weekend went wonderfully and I hope to hear all about it. Especially your dinner with josephine.
I do need to know if you were able to secure the use of a camera, my dear. If you need to borrow one, I would be happy to write a letter to the owner explaining why you need it. I do need to see those pictures of you before I have you shave yourself. Having both before and after is important.
As we talked about before, we need to adjust your daily regimen so as to include both myself and your submission as an integral part of it. Therefore, you will need to acquire the following items:
1. A small butt plug. This will become your best friend as you will be wearing it 24 hours a day removing it only once a day for bowel movements.
2. A larger sized vibrator. Please don't be shy and pick a size that intimidates your sensibilities. You must have something to aspire to.
3. A clitoral vibrator of the type that has elastic straps that go around your thighs. It has a small wired controller that can be carried in a pocket and it can be worn all day.
4. 4 nipple clips with metal teeth sheathed with rubber that have weights attached to the end of the clips.
These will do for starters.
You will, of course, be packing away your panties into a back closet sealed in a plastic bag. I will want you to urinate on the pile before sealing them away so as to eliminate temptation to pull out a pair and wear them. You will keep aside 7 pairs of old cotton panties to wear when it is your time of the month. On the front of each pair you will write the day, i.e. Monday, Tuesday, etc., and on the rear of each you will write the word "unclean". All writing will be done in black magic marker.
You will sleep totally nude except when it is your period. You will wear the butt plug 24/7 except to remove it at 6 p.m. to move your bowels. When you remove the butt plug to do so, you will wipe off the end and hold the plug in your teeth while you void yourself, reinserting it promptly thereafter.
In your home, you will always be naked from the waist down. In the mornings, you will put on your skirt, dress, or pants right before you leave, and in the evenings you will strip as quickly as you can.
You already have your masturbation schedule for work. At the home, it will be as follows:
1. In the shower right after you have shaved yourself daily. (After I have seen you before you have shaved that first time)
2. In your kitchen right before you finish dressing to leave for work.
3. In the evenings, in your foyer right after you strip for me when you arrive home.
4. And twice after you have turned out the lights and retired to bed.
Add these to the schedule I gave you Friday. And of course this schedule might be supplanted by other "activities" we decide for you. We will also incorporate the use of the above toys into your schedules after you have acquired them. This will start you off nicely, angel. Of course you and I will be expanding on it over time. Hopefully reading it has made you desire to run off to the ladies room to alleviate the sexual tension that is filling you to overflowing at the moment. I know that this is all what you desire to complete your life. I told you before that I love you enough to control your every waking moment and to totally dominate your sexuality.
I can't wait to hear about you and josephine. If you were able to talk with her and she was open to our relationship I would love to try to enlist her help to at least ensure your compliance with my requirements. In a perfect world I would eventually have her flogging your bottom for me so that I may see it in stripes.
Immerse yourself mentally in all the possibilities, mon cher.
Your Loving Mistress
Jan 13, 2003
Mistress
I have read your mail. Thank you.
I will, of course, from now follow your schedule of masturbation, and will try to get out and find somewhere where I might buy the things you ordered.
As for josephine, I had a lovely time on Friday night, and again, we went our together shopping on Saturday. We must have had almost 2 bottles of wine between us on Friday, and were both a little tipsy. We talked quite alot about Jackie, josephine's bi friend. Jo admitted that Jackie has approached her sexually, and if she fancied her she might have gone ahead, but although jackie is a dear friend she just cant think of her sexually. Apparently Jackie is a 'bit butch' and not at all attractive, though she has a heart of gold. Anyway, conversation went on to whether I have 'anyone' at the moment, and I told her about you. Well, actually Mistress, I lied a little. I told her that you and I were mailing each other, but that we used to live together when we were In Lugano - Sorry Miss, it just came out that way. She asked about you and me, and I told her it was a 'special' relationship, and she badgered me over it and eventually I told her that I was your sub and you my Domme. She just kept saying 'how exciting', and ever after that she called me 'Stephie the sub', like when she asked me for a drink or whatever.
I am sorry Miss, but I didn't show her your note. I had been to her bathroom half way through the evening, and masturbated myself (thinking about Jackie to be honest) and the note was in a real mess.
We went out shopping together on Saturday, but didn't buy a thing. We just did lots of looking, and drank copious amounts of coffee - we needed it after the wine, lol.
I have to go now to meet some new salesgirls.
Will write more later.
angel x